I thought it would be hard to let you go…. turns out, it wasn’t at all. I took a step back and realized that we weren’t cut out for eachother. And then I accepted it. No more putting effort in someone I saw potential in. It was also a lesson learned about falling for someone. I’m glad that it didn’t work, because now I know not to make the same mistake with someone new.
I remember that day when i first saw you when I walked into the room. Caught my attention right away. I already knew that at some point of the day you would attempt to talk to me. And when you did I already knew what game you were going to spit. But at the same time you knew how I was going to play It off and act like I didn’t notice. And then how we got so close so fast. And realized that we are alike In many ways. How we went through crazy bullshit and drama but then after it was over we carried on and made sure to keep eachother on the right track school and work wise. It was working out great. And all the times we went out with eachother to kickbacks and parties or even to my house to just kick it and have fun. I miss it a lot. And then the time I decided to join I knew how it was all going to go down. Literally down hill. I knew you wouldn’t like it, and even though you said you would support me you weren’t 100% honest. I knew it would seperate us and then realized at that time that I’m just a chapter in your book of life like you are in mine. You always told me how unready you were for the next step and that its not what you wanted at the time. And I understood. But i thought a lot about and told myself what’s the point in waiting around and doing nothing here? I mean yea I was going to school and work but I knew its not what I wanted. If I stayed around nothing really wouldn’t of have happened. I knew it was going to either tear us apart or build us up. It turned the wrong way but fuck it. It happens. I did put in effort. But didn’t really get any back. It just hurt when I would write and not get anything back. No reply for anything. You might say you didn’t give up or that you were busy, but its not fair. I would take out time from my hard as long day to write you and got nothing. And I even told you fine, that we will stay just friends. But I felt like you didn’t want to keep up with that. Its ok though. I’m done or at least I’m assuming that we are because your busy doing you. And I am too. All I have to say now is that its hard to forget someone that gave you so much to remember. But then again we all have to move on. Thanks for giving me a life lesson learned. To not give someone so much of yourself because your only going to get shit back. Especially if he always wanted to be just friends. Oh yea and you shouldve never told me you loved me, because all you did was lie. I appreciate all the good times though.
One thing I learned while growing up was to always try new things and then see what doors and opportunities open up for myself throught my life. Which one reason why I’m so outgoing and curious. I keep my options open, open doors, and explore what my actions lead to. Thats what life is supposed to be like. Not stagnant or the same. Just remember you never know.